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Can't sleep           Can't even comprehend how to close my eyes Can't eat           Can't even remember how to chew food Can't think           Can't even think about thinking Can't speak           Can't get the words to make themselves Can't do anything           Can't even write this This letter to you telling you how you affected me How you hurt me so bad, so bad I can't even function I just sit and remember everything Remember every burning moment And how you tried to sweeten it With your words like acid on my brain Disintegrating all that helped me live, My will to survive, my soul, my very passion for life I hope

She lies before me in a glitter of white Her lines so seductive, oh what a sight. I am hers, yes forever hers, for I have lost the fight She is the one, the only one, I'm blinded by her light. Many times a day I must take in all her beauty I surrender all control and all sense of duty. She has taken my life and turned it asunder I draw closer to the end and six feet under. --I will give anything to have her, everything I own my family, my financial security, even my home. --A relinquishment of hope with no end in sight I pay rent to the devil for an angel in white. Oh the jobs I have lost and will never get back The best women th

Feel me, Use me, Dream me, Breathe me, Love me or hate me No matter what, You'll always come running back to me. I'm that addiction, That frustration, That anticipation, That vexation. Try running and you'll see, The hold will bring you back to me. I'll eat you up, spit you out Fill you up, break you down, I'm the boss of you, not you to me, I'm the heart to you; you're the blood to me. As long as I'm with you, you'll never be free, Don't you see, we were meant to be? I'm bound to you and you to me Until its time to dispose of you, And leave you be.

close youre eyes and walk with me just relax and trust my touch (the pain wont hurt that much) imagine a world black as night the skies no longer shine (i sold the sun for a line) demons creep just out of sight lips smacking in lust for your soul (i smoked mine up in a bowl) each night that passes it lures me in with promises and hopes of love (i jumped without even shove) rumors of rock bottom and tales of life pollute young minds but of this none compare (ive been drowned in the depths of despair) walk around that corner there see that precious young girl i dont know how or why shes here (she cries a f

"Hey, come here... lets play. Just like yesterday. In my room, lock the door. This is something you haven't played before. But we got to make it quick, you're about to leave. Now take off this, and unbutton these. Now lay on the bed please, relax... and Just breathe"..... Out of, my violation Comes your, annihilation. Obstruction, of purity. Unbelievable obscurity. Tainted innocence. Labeled a "menace" since. I accepted my mute krys labeled lies, cast aside, yet I... never asked why Voiceless, at too young of an age. Over came and conflicted with rage. But never again did I, breathe your name. Too much pain... too much shame.

In the rather wonderous lonely sky My thoughts that will never die are floating The cold winds bring the season My frozen white sigh heralded winter My voice is in the letter written to you It wafts down under you along with the white snow My heartless words torture you Well I suppose until even now it pains you And in the interior of the pain, The fact was that you continued to conceal a face unknown to me, didn't you? Without feeling your pain I was making you suffer alone in the darkness With you, whom I met in the pure white winter I want it so the two of us can share that pain Always, by your side Unchangeable, thought the

As she stared into the night Was the castle dressed in white Behind her virgin eyes The mirror image of her plague And darkness overcame Until she screamed alone in vain Oh how lovely as she gasps Yet so innocently sleeping And forever she will haunt now manifest this disease The misfortune of the weak I'll tell you what it is Walk down these tragic steps Disapearing with no trace, nothing left It was the perfect murder The perfect murder In the ballroom with a glass Remembering it at last The memory of her first kiss Led to a series of unfortunate events She'll dance to the sound of the clock Striking twelve...

For years and years I lived in a trace Treating life like a fairy dance Worries and pain seemed far-off Looking at others' sores with scoff Fear of loss never meant anything at all Similar emotions from spring to fall Then bit by bit and moment by moment Trance boken, stupor end Fear of loss paved the days String of memories filled the nights Those gone never returned Leaving thoughts of bygone days...

One by one I read her messages Words diquised in many colored meanings They are not legibal A picture imerges out of them but blurred I cannot understand Why sometimes I feel abandoned And sometimes in her company My thirst grows toward exremety I hear the whistling wind singing a song I observe darkness slowly dissapearing around me The picture becomes clear now She has come to embrace me I feel like a bird on wings My migration begins with a deeper sleep I feel her could tough in my dreams She lets my head rest on her lap I see myself merging into her FInally, eternally, and absolutely...

Southwest of my dreams my old life was lost and I'm a little rusty I felt a little cheap as I walked aon the stage I looked up and prayed but I didn't feel holy It was hard to breathe The lights caused my eyes to burn Then the power went out It was black Then... Death